What Now?

The Job, My Life, The Life.
My life is in strife.
Stabbing pains of wounds that have not healed
Wounds that once were real, now even harder to repair.
Feeling’s of despair
Now I swap roles, must stay strong
although the job will seriously take it’s toll now.
I loved her, always did, never stopped
She will never have the chance to forgive, me.
Not now, now she has gone.
Now I must support Jack.
Protect him from evil
Everyday try to be there for him.
Will the job take over again?
Will I decide to stay?
My mind wonders.
Can I stay?
Priorities must be put into order
But don’t want to be alone, just sitting at home.
They are family too, good support for me.
Can’t just abandon them, they mean to much,
They understand.
The only question that remains,
How do I keep the balance,
When last time I failed